You think you’re motivated until something happens to your child. I’m a first-time mom and my babe is almost 8 months old so I haven’t even been at this for a long time, just a few months. Long enough, though, to find a bigger motivation than myself.
Yesterday, Isabella had to have a sedated MRI to checkout “non-specific lesions” on her liver, found through an Ultrasound. I’ve been praying those lesions are just shadows or nothing important. Even more, I’ve been praying her tummy/digestive issues are just constipation.
So, she had the sedated MRI to check all that out. I’m not sure when we’ll have the results. It will either be tomorrow at her gastrologist appointment or next Wednesday at her pediatrician check-up from an ear infection.
Yesterday was heartbreaking though. While they put her under general anesthesia she was so very good. She just held my hand and looked around with her eyes while they held the mask over her nose and mouth. We were able to stay with her until she fell asleep and then they made us leave.
Her waking up was not a pleasant experience. They were supposed to come get us to be there when she woke up so she’d see familiar faces. They did not though and I still am pretty upset by that whole experience. Instead, they came and got us and she was crying her eyes out and so upset. Rightfully, so. I felt so bad for her.
Today, I wanted to stay home with her also but I’ll already be missing 2 full days of work because of that appointment and her gastro appointment tomorrow since they’re both in Orlando, a good hour away. So that stems more into my why of wanting my own business. Not only do I want to help other women, I want to be there for my baby when she needs me. I want to be able to stay home and not have to worry if that pay check will be enough to pay our bills for that 2 week period. I want to be there for all of her firsts. For all of her needs. I do not want to have to worry about bills or money to keep me from make those decisions.
Nicoles Fitness 